Kalau

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Kalau lah kau tahu apa aku sedang rasa. 
Kalau lah semua orang tahu apa aku pernah rasa.
Kalau lah...
Kalau...

For the time being, 
Aku cuma boleh cakap dengan tuhan je. 
Ye.
Cakap dengan tuhan kau. 
Tuhan aku. 
Tuhan kita.
Allah.

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